Hey girls. So I was on the shot for a while until I gained 50 pounds from it. I'm 5"7 and a half and I weigh 185. I hold most of the weight on my lower body. And I am pudgy now. I used to have six pack when I met my husband but it's gone now. I have been working out and eating healthy but the weight is a slow process right now. My grandmother today just came to the room and grabbed my tummy while I was sitting and was like do u see this pudge ? U have to get ur self looking attractive or he's gonna leave. I just lost it after that. I've been depressed every since this weight got on me. I feel trapped while I try to shed it off. I was barely eating any different than now when I was on the shot so it wasn't appetite and it wasn't junk. It was just a horrible weight gain I couldn't control. Now I'm crying every night. It's affecting my relationship because I'm getting really insecure and putting in my mind he'll leave me one of these days.

I told my grandmother that he loves me unconditionally and that he told me that physical aspects isn't what holds important it's the soul and the heart. Cuz sooner or later the human body changes either with pregnancy or hormones or anything even aging. But what matters most is the love we have for each other cuz that will remain even when our bodies are buried underground. And she just said oh well he's lying because no man likes weight gain on a woman. Men like that don't exist.

I'm destroyed... I pick at myself everyday when I look in the mirror and to be told to lose weight everyday or else imma lose what's dearest to me is depressing.