I was raped by my first boyfriend

Emma

So I was with a guy for 8 months and I was at his house one day in December and I was in his room playing a game on his Xbox since that's what I did a lot when I went over and he came into the room and turned the game off and put a movie in and maybe 20 minutes into the movie he started pushing his self on me and I tried to make him stop but he wouldn't I started to shake really bad after he finished and when to the bathroom (sorry for the tmi part) and I was bleeding I managed to stop it before my mom got there a few minutes later and I hid it from everyone but almost got pregnant I finally told my current boyfriend that I left the guy for after he showed me how bad the guy really was and my boyfriend told my mom about it because he was worried about me because I have nightmares and panic attacks from the fact I'm scared it's going to happen again in the future either with the same guy or someone else

And I'm only 14 i had my whole life planned out before this happened now I don't even want to go in public from the fear of seeing him