Pt 2 losing my virginity

So now he has a whole gf which Ik her (crazy right) and he so in love with her but still tries to fuck me and call me and all them runs and put her on her story like when will you get enough of hoeing but it's my fault actually for still putting up with it because I lost my virginity to him and he's my first love and I still love him but I'm just getting tired but I don't want no one else and he don't even gaf well he says 😩but how should I tell him how I feel without looking stupid