"Fill me up till I overflow"

So as some of you know I suffered a missed miscarriage in 2013/4 years ago. My heart was crushed for so long after the loss my god. I completely lost myself I was so young only 18 years old. And I tend to listen to music from the year of 2013 because I try to help myself cope with the emotions I endured then. But the moral of the story is that I've been bringing gospel music deeper into my life & I've been listening to an album by Tasha Cobbs and she has a song on it called fill me up.

Which says...

"you provide the fire, I'll provide the sacrifice. You provide the spirit I will open up inside" "fill me up till I overflow, I want to run over, I want to run over" "fill me up god"

It just so happens that I'm thinking about the loss & what I can do to have a baby with my loved one.. I look up to the album cover & right next to it says 2013 I immediately feel this overwhelming spirit that makes me want to cry but not only that it made me want to "run over" because "I am empty before you lord" as stated in the song. But this time I didn't feel like I wanted my life to be over. I heard myself say no first fill me up God. "Please fill me up god, I need a fresh anointing" I love my baby "fill me again, I need more of you. "I've been running on empty god"

I crave more of God

More of his glory

God I need you

God please make me strong

God I'm so sorry

God I'm tired

God I'm trusting in you

God I will not give up.

God please fill me up till I overflow!

Will anyone ever understand my love for god? My precious love for god? I'm am forever thankful for being alive but I am so sorry deep in my heart and I can't let go of this yearning to go back in time & save my baby's life, my relationship, my happiness.