ttc with 1st.........1st post on here

Well I'm 32 and ttc my 1st child. I've gone to 2 doctors, 1doctor(endocrinologist) says I'm borderline hypothyroid and should take synthroid if pregnant and the other (My ob/gyn who has tested my levels also) sets my levels are good with out and I don't need it. Well I'm worried and stressed about that plus we have been ttc for over a year and nothing yet. I feel like something is wrong with me. I get sad and have muy little pity party for a minute and then tell myself to let it go and move on. I've always dreamed of being a mom and love every chance I get to spend with my niece and care for her and watch het grow and teach her and love her. it just feels like everyone around me (5 women I work right now and I don't work with many women) are pregnant and I get asked all the time when I will be) are pregnant and I just sit there with a smile on my face happy for them when inside....... I'm a wreck. I want to cry and shout outs not fair they didn't even try it just happened, a happy little accident. I just wanna be a mom...