He wants to leave....

We've been together forever... over 10yrs

We're married for 8 years...

he wants to leave. We're not perfect there was infidelity (on his part) a few years ago.

I thought we were ok. He has anger issues and we still have challenges communicating sometimes but I thought we were ok. I've asked to go to counseling he said no.

He has to have a snap chat for work. This morning I found that he had subscribed to girls who post porn. And one girl had snapped him privately.

I freaked out. I told him he was an idiot for doing that in his work phone.

And I was hurt. That this was a betrayal.

At first he was apologetic and he said he wished I was more secure.

Then the conversation changed. He told me that he's still unhappy and we should go to therapy. But not for the reason I think. He says I will need closure. My world is falling apart.

He says he's been unhappy for YEARS. And that he's been trying to make it work.

I didn't know...

He said that I'm perfect for him. He says does love me. He says he will miss me. He just wants freedom.

I'm so heartbroken

We're pregnant. I'm still in the first trimester. I told him I don't want to be a single mom and he brought up abortion.

I'm sick. I told him that's not an option.

I don't know why he doesn't want our family anymore.

We planned this baby. We bought a house. We've been planning our future together.

How can he change his mind now?

I love him

I don't know what's wrong with me. How can I still love this man and want to be with him when he can stay this stuff to me?

I'm a mess

He leaves for work tonight and will be gone for a few days. I can't handle this.

***to answer Barbiees question "why does he have a Snapchat for work". It's a marketing thing. He's expected to have a social media presence. He also has a Facebook and instagram.***