...and right now I'm sitting in my bathtub crying. A bunch of facebook congratulations but still, no one to celebrate with. I have a boyfriend, and just because we had a road trip yesterday, he didn't planned anything for today. I still live with my parents. They've been arguing all day and they just took me to eat pizza and now they left for church. I have a car but no real friends to go out with. Like, I just don't see the fun of going out by myself on my birthday. So I'm home, sad, lonely, crying, just wondering why no one wants to celebrate another year of my life. It's not like I want to be the center of attention, not at all. But it would be nice to be celebrated at least once a year. I have a lot of special people in my life but it's like I'm not special enough to anyone. I thought of 25 would feel awesome, and I just feel completely empty, crying myself out in a bathtub when I should be out having fun. I even asked someone like "dude let's go out do something I'm having a bad time" and all I got back was two blue checkmarks on whatsapp.

Just needed to put this out there, because I literally have no one to say this. My boyfriend already called me ungrateful because we had fun yesterday. Ok fine. But my birthday is today. And yesterday it was a day for friends. There was nothing aimed at my birthday.