Hey y'all, idk where else to turn other than here. The first half of this year has been awful, I got into a falling out with one of my closest friends (and my only friend at my college basically) and since I study journalism, there's a lot of group projects.

Even though I have friends outside of my major (friends who I graduated with), I still feel extremely lonely during the week. It's been ~4 months since the falling out and since this friend of mine is in my class (we're a class of like 20 people max), it's extremely awkward. Especially since they act like they never knew me.

What happened was that I introduced him to my group of friends that I graduated with (two girl friends of mine) and we all felt we had become close to him, but apparently he felt differently about it, saying he never felt that he fit in.

I graduate next year (in Brazil it's a weird system, we study for 3.5 years for my major) so it's a relief to see the "light at the end of the tunnel" and to get out of that weird situation.

Recently, I've felt depressed. I know it might sound dumb, but feeling lonely every day takes a toll on you. I've been smoking more and more frequently, I have had a huge stack of things all over my desk, I haven't felt joy in doing things I usually like doing and I'm getting kind of worried. It gets worse when I'm close to my period, while I'm PMSing I cry a lot (which is really different for me, I used to never cry for anything but yesterday I spent a good afternoon moping and crying).

Damn it feels good to put that out there. Feel free to ask questions and whatnot or not idk