Mentally destroyed...

I am having a natural MC, I would have been 13 weeks tomorrow. My baby has been gone since June 25th but I didn't bleed until July 21st. I am completely broken right now. I just watched my child come out. I am destroyed like I thought I was strong enough but I can't. It got stuck and I felt something soft coming but I thought it was just a clot so when I went to pull it it was my child. Guys I can't do this! I can't stop crying and now I can't get off the toilet. This is damaging...women go through so much!