Hi all,

My name is Nicole I'm 26 years old and live in Queensland australia. I'm looking for emotional support. I don't have many friends.

I was diagnosed with pcos when I was 16 and I've never had regular periods and have been told by my gp that I don't ovulate.

About 12 months ago I had the gastric sleeve surgery and am loving it. So far I've lost 45kg.

Two weeks after the surgery my body decided it would ovulate... I was so excited I thought maybe I will get my chance...

Nope crashing down I realised that Aunty flo had decided to show her face...

After pulling myself through yet again.... I get on with life.

10 months later body decided it's going to have another go... at least it's not two years between cycles this time.

My partner is really excited he is on the optimistic train at the moment... I just can't bring myself to get excited anymore...

I had gotten To the point I didn't want to have sex because it wasn't accomplishing what I wanted it too.

I just don't know how to deal with the glimmer of hope then have my heart ripped out again over and over and over and over.

For those who have been through something similar how did you cope emotionally? And how did you get through?

I have friends who are in first time mum faze and I just can't be around them because they have the one thing I want.