*First off, I don't bash others in their religious beliefs, so please don't have any negative comments on mine.*

I don't necessarily believe, nor disbelieve. But I'm not much of one to pray. But for some reason something hit me tonight as I officially hit my 2 week wait.. and I prayed.. and I prayed hard. Back in November 09' I lost my papaw, he was my best friend and I still miss him dearly. The day he died, I needed/wanted a sign to know that I would eventually be okay.. and when I left the hospital there was a rainbow that made me feel a sense of peace. In March 17' I found out I was pregnant by surprise and my due date was the day my papaw died, later at an ultrasound appointment I found out I had a missed miscarriage at 12 week and 4 days. I really struggled at first. Why me? What did I do wrong? I miss my baby so much everyday. Well here we are in July 17' and I'm currently TTC. I just hit my 2 week wait and tonight I prayed so hard, till I cried asking for my rainbow, I need my sense of peace to know that my rainbow is coming and that I am worthy of being a momma. If anyone can comment some things they did to cope after a loss, TTC their rainbow baby, in their 2WW, or even just something uplifting I would greatly appreciate it. 🌈👶🏽💕