I thinking of deleting my account on here. I thought it was finally going to be my month finally my yr. saying to myself YES it's has come it's finally my turn.

I was 10 days late I was so excited and I was going to wait until the end of the month to buy a test. I was so excited I have never been this late before ever. Like maybe 2 or 3 days at the most but shit 10 I was like ok it's for sure!!!! Then nope I started all day on and off I have been crying telling my self why. And I can't keep going through this. It feels like every month I try and it come out to be a big fat no. My heart breaks every month and I'm like killing my self. The pain hurts so bad. Us women are her put on this earth to have babies. To bring life. And I can't even make it happen I can't even do one thing that my body is supposed to do. I can't even hold on to a baby. I feel like I'm worthless and not a woman I fear that one day my husband will leave me for someone else who can get pregnant unlike me. I told him today that I'm going to give up on trying I can't keep torturing myself it hurts so much. I want babies I want a family I want to be mother. And I can't it's just not happening. So I said maybe I should let you go so you can be with someone who can give you babies and all that. I don't want you to waste the rest of your life with me. I know how bad you want kids of your own. ( he has a younger sister who just had one and his younger brother just had one ) and the look on his face is so full with excitement and love and joy. It kills me so much. That I can't give him a baby. Now sometimes I'm like what's the point of having sex when I just get let down. So I just don't even want to at times. I'm sorry if I don't make sense I'm so hurt sad depressed and crying. So what's the point of having this app if it hasn't happened yet.