I cheated on my boyfriend.

I flirted with a long distance ex for over a month and allowed him to talk to me in a way i would never want anyone to talk to my boyfriend.

I know how everyone on here really feels. so dont sugarcoat it. tear me down.

It was several months ago. my boyfriend was skyping me tonight and i fell asleep for a little bit. he woke me up and asked me if i was still talking to my ex.

i havent talked to my ex since the night i came clean to my boyfriend about cheating.

I honestly hurt so much inside. I hate myself so much for what i did. It makes me wish my boyfriend would just hit me and scream at me and be angry at me and leave me because he deserves better.