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2 years of TTC- 3 losses 👼🏼👼🏼👼🏼

Lo • Sun, Jul 30

My husband and I have been trying for 2 years, we got pregnant after 4 months of trying the first time, miscarried at 10 weeks. Got pregnant 6 months later and miscarried at 12 weeks, and this past march another loss at 8 weeks. We've done blood clotting tests, genetic testing, tests on my uterus and all came back normal. My doctor says maybe it was just three "unluckies"(hate that).

I sat in the shower and broke down today, I've been having dreams about miscarriages a lot recently and it's just getting to me. I look around and see bad people, people who don't want or deserve their kids, and it makes me so upset. I am a good person, I care about strangers, people in the store who can't afford their food, I buy it. I just don't understand why god lets bad things happen to good people. When I got out of the shower after 30 minute of just sobbing, I saw this rainbow shining from our sky light. And although there are days when I think the worlds against me and gods punishing me for something, I believe he's by my side with my angel babies 💕