FTM...feeling like I failed..

Maggie

Breastfeeding has been extremely hard since the beginning. My son is now 7 weeks old and because of it being hard I am supplanting. Still trying to pump and breastfeed but he isn't content in the breast content. When I pump I'm lucky to get an ounce and half all day. Trying mothers milk tea, upflow breastmilk pills, and nothing. I've been supplementing with the bottle and now my son does not want to latch on at all, not with a shield and with out. The little milk I do get in a day I try and give him through the bottle. I feel like I failed my little man. Maybe I didn't try hard enough in the beginning and just gave up too soon. I can't seem to stop crying over it either. His pediatrician is happy with his growth, but I hate how he spits up the formula (I know all Babies spit up) but sometimes its feels like it's a lot. I shouldn't be beating up myself so much about this breastfeeding thing but I am.