born at 29 weeks

so if you're following me, you might remember I went into preterm labor at 23+5 water broke at 24, hospital bed rest for almost 6 weeks. well july17 I started having some back pain and starting leaking huge amounts of blood. I mean literally sleeping on a puppy pad like thingy lol. I'm a person who neverrrrr takes any narcotics, not even a Tylenol. I was even supposed to have a water birth with a midwife. That all went out the window once those back contractions started. I had an Infection so they needed to get my baby out asap. well asap was after 32 hours, multiple doses of fentanyl and morphine. I was still at 1cm after 6 weeks, so the Dr. ordered pitocin, but I knew I couldn't handle any more pain so I ordered the epidural, which was a complete fail. I still felt my lower body, but my upper body was so heavy I couldn't move or barely breathe. I had an anxiety attack up until I fell asleep. I woke up to a woman screaming next door and my Dr.came to check me again. I was now at a 5. 15 min later I had the worse pain of my life, my epidural which barely worked was completely gone. I started screaming for my nurse who checked me. I was at 10 cm. the dr walked in slowly while I screamed at him "hurry up!!!!!!!" two pushes later my son was born weighing 2lbs 15oz breathing completely on his own. Meet Amir the absolute love of my life