Dear life I should be happy, I need to be happy. My husband loves me, my child loves me, my friends and family love me. But I'm not happy, I want to run away, I just want to cry. I feel nothing anymore its not fair, I'm trying my best but its not enough. When can I put my happiness first without the judgement of everyone around me, without people saying its the easy way out. I cant remember the last time i felt truely happy and not just an act for everyone around me. My husband I love you with all my soul and always will but I feel I have lost me by being with you, we met when I was going through alot of personal stuff and now I dont think I had the space I needed to mentally heal myself. Forever I will love and adore you. My darling daughter, you are my world,my life, I love you more than you will ever know. You deserve the best in life. Your my reason for pushing on every day no matter the pain I feel. I LOVE YOU. Life you are a bitch and I just want to feel normal again. Xx