Okay, so I have to get a physical for my sports because I'm in high school and the school requires one if you join a team. Granted I have been on the team for 3 years now and I had gotten a physical my freshman year because I had to if I wanted to be able to do my sport and now I have to do one again but I absolutely don't want to and I hate it because it makes me feel really uncomfortable and have bad anxiety attacks but I try not to show it because my mom and doctor is in the room and I don't talk to my parents like that and I wouldn't tell her anything to show vulnerability or anyone really and reason it makes me so anxious and makes me want to cry is because it gives me bad PTSD flashbacks and shit because I've been sexually abused and molested my whole life and last time it happened was last year by a little boy while I was asleep in my nieces room, he was maybe 5 or 6 I believe a little older not sure and I am 16 turning 17 soon. So the fact that it had happened to me for my whole life by more people than I can even count anymore it just really makes me hate myself because it makes me feel like I will always be a target for people no matter what and I've had a boss in the past do the same to me and I just am tired of it. Anyway, sorry got off topic a bit, that is the reason I don't like doing them and I really don't want to have it done whether it be by a male or female. My doctor is a female and because I am a female I most definitely wouldn't let a male doctor do anything like that for me. My parents only know of one person that has molested me and only found out last year because I came out about it to a crisis worker and she told them. Other than that my therapist only knows about the fact that there are 8 specific people I can say completely changed my life forever. They were just the most terrible. I will not tell my parents about any of the others. At least not now at least maybe when I'm a lot older but not anytime within the next 10 years for sure. I don't know, but I told my therapist I never told her before about it because I didn't want her to have to tell my parents because that would make things worse for me and they'd regret knowing especially because I wouldn't tell them by who. I won't tell anyone names. Anyway again off topic sorry. But is there any way I can not get a physical even though I have to have one done? I doubt it but I just want to make sure.

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To those of you asking about the 5 or however old he was, he came in the room as I was asleep and had his hands under my shirt and bra, and in my underwear as he was kissing on me. Just because he's young doesn't mean he doesn't know it's wrong. I woke up to it and pushed him off real quick.

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When it had happened I had went to tell my brother in law because it was his nephew and idk what happened after that with the whole situation.