Not so happy anymore.

Two days ago I was so happy. As of Tuesday i was scheduled to be induced yesterday (saturday the 5th). I had so much energy i felt amazing. This nightmare would finally be over. I get to the hospital and they tell me, "we cannot induce you today" .. I guess a nurse called in so they were short staffed, had one lady in active labour and another needing to be induced for medical reasons. I thought to myself "of course, this is just my luck" .. so like every other super pregnant mother i ask "when will we be able to induce me" my doctor tells me he's full staffed tomorrow (sunday) and he will call me in the morning or by noon. I called around 11:45, got a super rude nurse who said "there's nothing we can do just sit and wait for us to call you and if we don't call you have your answer" she was actually so mean about it. Well, it's 4pm and still no phone call and he's not on call as of tomorrow morning my stress level and anxiety is through the roof. My family is down my throat asking me whats going on, stressing me out more and just bothering me. My fiancé insists I keep calling trying to get answers and even got mad at me when i said i didn't wanna call again. I get that everyone is excited and wants the baby but nobody is feeling what I am feeling. I dislocated two joints in my back at 28 weeks, I have fallen down the stairs 3 times, I can not get off the couch or out of bed without help. My back is in so much pain i feel like it could break at any given moment. I have felt like this for over 10 weeks. If anyone wants this over with it's me. But here i sit, trying to be patient hoping they call. Trying to enjoy the experience of expecting our baby. But the only thing i feel is depressed, isolated and alone. I feel the pressure of my family jumping down my throat demanding answers i can't give them. I would rather lay in a hospital bed in a coma for the next two weeks, then be pregnant another day.

I wish the hospital would just call me and say, "there's a good chance it will be today" OR i'm sorry but it's not looking promising ANYTHING. I have had friends and family on call to watch our dog and 5 year old for two days and made them sit by the phone waiting for nothing. I just want this night mare to be over.