So we have wanted to have another baby. Particularly a boy. Everyone we know is having babies right now. Boys. So I finally missed an entire month of a period. July. And I was feeling hopeful which I've cut down in because I end up so disappointed. Then Saturday full blown bloody massacre. I've been extra depressed since. Like more than the usual period depressed. I don't know if he realized how heart wrenching this is for me. If he even knows how bad I want another baby. Or if if he just doesn't care. Since I started my period I'm craving more intimacy. He a been going out drinking every night. He's been gone all day. Just came home grabbed his dinner and left. Says he's going bowling w the guys but I don't really know. He has a checkered past. I've been having insomnia and crying myself to sleep for the whole week. He's being affectionate. Hugging kissing. Says he missed me while gone. Says he loves me. But I'm not sure if I believe him. He says he missed me after being gone all day. Then leaves again! I feel like if u missed me u would stay and spend time w me esp since u been gone all day. I don't know if I'm losing my mind. If I'm overreacting or if he's really up to no good. Ugh I'm just an emotional roller coaster.