To my fiancé

I don't understand why you're still with me. I'm in a depressed state of mind. When I talk to you about how I'm feeling you push me away and tell me I'm dramatic. When I asked you if you're happy you're answer was "I'm surviving"

When I ask you questions you shake your head at me and tell me basically to shut up. When I say I'm trying to communicate about the children you tell me I'm jealous of them.

I know you deserve someone happy and full of life I'm very depressed I don't know why you're still engaged to me if you're so miserable.

I just don't understand how I'm so hard to love when I pour my heart into my love and kids. I'm just going through a hard time