HELP!!!impotence

hey i have been having sex with my boyfriend for a while now and we have tried everything but i can't orgasm, every single night i look up new ways to help me orgasm and we try them and it feels gucking amazing but still nothing, then while i was doing what i usually do at night, look for ways to make me orgasm i found out that antidepressants can make you impotent, i then looked at every med i am on and they all can cause female impotence...... FUCK MY LIFE..... it's so annoying bc my life was already shit which is why i needed the meds which is making my life shittier.... i have been doing amazing lately too so i want to get off my meds likeASAP obvs i would wait to talk to my doctor and slowly get off them but i need to get off them... i feel like i'm not good enough for my boyfriend because i ant orgasm and being impotent fucks with your brain already... idk what i'm asking help for i just need some guidance