help.... some tmi

jennie

has anyone ever expierneced this?!.... so i went to the dr on the 3rd to see my blood work reslults he said i wasnt pregnant. just yesterday night i had a massive nd i mean atleast the size of my hand or bigger blood clot, atleast thats what i thought it was... when i woke up this morning the blood in my pad was brown. i didnt bleed ay all after that clot like very little almost spotting. i havent had my period since may 1st to may 7th. the dr caims its because im "over weight" i weigh 212 im 5'6 and its more muscle then fat. within the few months my stumic has became very big, ive gotten a shit ton of strech marks more then ive ever gotten. i used to only have 2... ive got like 20-30 now. when i checked my pad earlier i only have discharge does that mean i had a miscarrige?? ive had them in the past 3...l i had what seemed like inplantation bleeding the other night after sex, it wasnt directly after but a few hrs i noticed it in the morning i had a little in my panties... im extremely worried because ever dr im seeing keeps giving me the run around. im to the point of goinf to find some kind of research lab and seeing if they will run test on me to actually find out what is wrong with me. i want to have a baby so bad. but i dont stress over it. if it happens then it happens if not then so be it but i cant help to wonder if being on bc for 4 1/2 yrs ruined my reproductive system... my fiance is very supportive of whats going on with me. he is very worried and concered too, along with everyone at his work. we are very open about what goes on with us and me concering the baby things... meaning the miscarriges nd shit like that. but idk whats going on i really wanna find out if anyone else has expierced anything like this....