I wish I could be you. I wish I could eat whatever I wanted and not gain a pound. In fact, I used to be you! But for some reason, my metabolism slowed when I hit age 20. I wish I could control my appetite. I wish I could control my addiction to food. But every time I try, I don't even get past 1 day. I hate buying clothing because it never looks as good on me as I think it will. I hate taking pictures because my waist isn't tapered. I hate when people say, "you thicc" as if it is a compliment. I hate myself for gaining weight. I hate myself for not being able to just stop eating. I hate seeing your cute pictures. I hate having tits. I hate that working out makes me feel like shit physically with the sweating and heavy breathing and quickened heart rate and asthma, and emotionally because I'm too anxious to be in a gym if other people are there. But mostly, I hate stepping on the scale and seeing that I somehow gained 3 pounds in a day.

Sincerely,

The girl who used to be skinny