I'm sorry it took me so long to see you were the right person for me. I'm sorry i kept choosing the wrong person over you. I'm sorry i hurt you over and over again and I'm sorry i put myself through that pain as well. I truely didn't mean for anyone to get hurt. I'm sorry I never told you I was in love with you, because i was and i was terrified and you still do terrify me. i have never been so uncertain about anyone and i keep falling back into these patterns of comfort and i never stop thinking about you. I'm sorry I dissapointed you so much you won't even talk to me anymore. I'm sorry I never came to see you when i said i would. You were always there for everything when I got fired from my job, when i got a new job, we spent your birthday together, and fourth of july and you made me happy single day. even when you moved away you still made my heart race in this way i have never felt in my life so thank you showing me that i can love like that. and I'm just sorry. you were my best friend and I never wanted to lose you.