Hello everyone- a little over a week ago I found out I am pregnant with baby #4. My husband and I are both really unhappy. After my last birth I had a postpartum stroke. I am so conflicted and alone. My husband is distant and upset and I have been non stop bawling. I feel awful because this is just not a happy moment... I hope I'm not alone... I feel like if I continue the pregnancy, I will die and leave my three kids behind... but I don't believe in abortion- and yet here I am!? Anyone else have any stories that might help me see this from another perspective?