I don't care if anyone sees this, I don't care if anyone responds. Although, it'd probably help.

I am trying to calm down from a panic attack. And talking, even typing helps.

I'm listening to a youtube video that's supposed to help. And it's helping me calm down enough to be able to type this.

Now, I have tears running down my face but I can't move, I feel like there's 10,000 lbs on top of me, crushing me. I have to stop typing, and listen so I don't lose the grip. I will probably soon be waking up my so, even though he wakes up in 3 hours because my heart feels like it's going to explode and I just want him to hold me. Edit: Thank you for allowing me to talk. Like

I said talking helps so I am starting to feel relief. This came out of nowhere and hit me with full force. I don't have to wake him up now, I hate when I feel like I have to do that and have only done it once. He helped me through it, but I hate bothering someone's sleep.