miscarriage

I've been a little depressed after my miscarriage. I also lost my sister to cancer last year I've just had a hard time all around. I do have a 9 month old but since this was my second pregnancy I kinda like di dnt watch my caffeine intake as much as I did with my first I feel like I'm sorta blaming myself. I know miscarriages just happen at random but I also know having over the 200mg recommended of caffeine can double the chances of miscarriage I just know if God gives me another chance I will be drinking my decaf coffee and taking my prenatal vitamins daily this has just been such a whirlwind of emotions and I'm back at work and I'm just so depressed and stressed I just want to crawl in a hole..... I know God has a plan and it just wasn't right timing but that still doesn't take away the heart ache I'm prayingg for all you women experiencing this and infertility and just pregnancy in general even healthy pregnancies are a whirlwind of emotions 💞💞🌈🌈🌈🤞💜🙏🙏🙏