I'm 24 been with my partner 6 year had 3 miscarriages 2012 2013 and 2016. But I am so hacked off to be honest my brother is 21 he's always been centre of attention in our family my mum and dads friends always say oh we didn't no you had an older child to be far no one really knows me but my everyone know we of my brother my family have always been proud of him like he done well at school stayed on I left e got a job I didn't he passed his driving I didn't they were all over the moon for him to be honest I feel like the black sheep of the family a failure all I wanted is for them to say they were proud of me and show me the love and affection they do with my other brothers and sisters so I got pregnant in 2012 and though I'm giving them there first grandchild they are going to be super proud of me and then it all ended at 9weeks 5days I lost the baby a felt like a failure again felt like only thing a wanted was a baby and I couldn't even do that then again in 2013 but that ended at just 3weeks then again in 2016 but that ended again at 9weeks 5days I felt I couldn't do nothing right in my life. Yes I am jealous of my brother as he's got everything I ever wanted I have no friends to speak to about any of this and don't really have anyone else to speak to I have been so desperate for my own little family and been trying and trying to conceive its all I have wanted but last night my brother dropped the boom shell and told me his girlfriend is pregnant and shes 7 weeks is it bad that I'm so heartbroken and all i did was cry 😪😪😪 I just want to run away and never come back can't help but feel so lost and empty 😪😪😪😪😪( sorry for the long post just had to tell someone as no one else knows about the pregnancy but me) is it bad that I don't feel happy for him (sorry didn't no were to post) no rude comment please