I've been wanting my rainbow baby for over a year-and-a-half and I always promised myself I would never be one of those mean crabby ungrateful pregnant people. and here I am sick as a dog I cannot handle my emotions and I'm just angry with myself because I always promised myself I would never feel this way. I can't be the only one I am so so so so so grateful for this baby growing inside me I just wish I didn't feel like I was crazy.