Baby Fever

I'm 16 getting ready to start my junior year of high school. This whole summer I've had the worst baby fever ever 🙄 And I haven't talked about to anyone because the simple fact I'm still in high school and people would think it'd be the dumbest thing to even think about. My mom had me at my age and I don't want to disappoint her, she wants me to break the generation curse but my baby fever have been off the chain😭 I've even been looking at baby stuff like clothes bottles bedding etc. I need some good advice. Pls and thank you in advance