My boyfriend now, whatever then, ruined my first time. I had met him online for a little fun, no sex cause I was saving myself, and he knew this.

After we had a little fun I said I wanted to go further but I didn't know, he started rubbing me and coaxing me, I gave in and he wasn't slow, not really gentle. He kept saying this wasn't a one and done, and he stayed a bit to make sure I knew he wasn't just gonna leave and never see me again cause I "was the best sex he ever had" I know first times aren't ever perfect, but god dammit I wish I did something different because I will cry over it