Okay so this is something that happened to me today. I went to my first volleyball practice as a freshman. And it was absolutely horrid. I was winded from just the warm ups. My legs gave out three times. I threw up twice. I used to self harm so of course I had the scars. Because I was turning red and sweating. They became rather prominent. I had four people pull me to the side, tell me to stop, ask me what they were, call me stupid for self harming in the first place, and saying that if I kept self harming they would tell the coach and have her kick me off the team. And that was just if the first ten to fifteen minutes. We probably practiced for about two and a half hours. I had both of the coaches yell at me for "not trying my hardest". I started crying because of the pain and I was called "a weak freshman" by the seniors. I was the odd man out so one of the coaches had to practice with me. And these are not nice people. They take volleyball way too seriously. By the end of practice I had collapsed four times and threw up three times. While walking to the bus I tripped and fell down four concrete stairs. A high school boy that I just happen to have a crush on helped me up so I turned more red sadly. I rolled my ankle when I fell so I had to be carried out of the bus by that same boy because he wanted to make sure I didn't hurt myself. He stayed next to me until my mom came to pick me up. And to my embarrassment he picked me up and carried me to her car.

So I really am sorry for the super long post that will probably not make sense to the majority of people who see this. While I write this I am in a hot bath.