sex=game over

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my hubby says for 3 years I turned him down when trying to be sexual and he will never do it again... so it's been a week since we had sex and I have to start it and I always start it in the brdroom... he says I'm plain Jane and the way I start it is boring.. he wants me to be more spontaneous... but idk where to start... I hate my body since my miscarriage in may.. 1st pregnancy and loss... idk what to do ... my 28th birthday is tomorrow and I feel we will be sexless forever.. I just want to feel loved by my husband.. of 5 years... grrr