Health and TTC vent.

Avery • Mommy to my sweet rainbow Alison💜 and Rosie 💕

I am very very overweight but have had semi regular periods. Just a hair over a year ago I got pregnant on our 3rd month trying only to suffer a missed miscarriage at 8 weeks. growth was way behind and I only measured 6 weeks. So I opted to have a D&C; because I was afraid of taking the pill with decent hospitals being an hour away and I just wanted to move past it and heal. I opted to have pathology done on my "products of conception". Well I got a call a few weeks later that everything was what they expected but it was vague and I didn't really know what they expected so I just assumed it was genetic abnormalities. I tried from October until May with no luck and periods became really erratic. I finally called my OBGYN after I completely missed my April period. They scheduled me for a late June appt and when I went I found out that I possibly had an interuterin infection that cpuld have caused my pregnancy loss because my uterine lining was inflamed. She had me and my husband take 14 days if antibiotics to cure us of the possible infection which they said could have caused the recent infertility. she also referred mr to medical weightloss wgich I agreed to because I know my weight is a health risk. So I go to the appt and she tells me she wants to check me for Insulin Resistance because if some symptoms including slow metabolism. Turns out, I have it but not Diabetes and I dont have any symptoms of PCOS so they dont beliebe it has come to that yet. I get put on Metphormin and given a diet plan. A few days later I returned to the OBGYN and she basically tells me that I need to take 6 months and get my health in check and then come back and see where I am at. basically if my levels are btter and I have sone weight off we will take the next step in my fertility plan. So now me and my husband are using condoms amd getting healthy... but it honeatly just really freaking sucks. I know it could be worse and I am lucky but I can't help thonking what if I jump through all these hoops and we never have a kid. Fertility is the most fruatrating thing EVER. End rant.