Am I crazy?

My boyfriend left for college last week. Now before y'all say "he's gone cheat" blah blah blah.. I trust him. He's such a good dude and he's NEVERRRR given me a reason to think that he would cheat. I'm a junior in high school and we've been together for 10 months and have been talking before that so I've been involved with him for over a year. Before he left we had sooo much sex every other day and back to back sessions. I don't wanna sound crazy but if I happened to end up pregnant I would b happy 😩 because I miss him so much and I feel like a baby would keep me and him close . Like I really miss him .. I cry everyday and he cried in my arms when he left me and I just need to vent but I would like to b pregnant just so I can keep him close . Please no negative comments