Anal- or lack there of.

My hubby and I have tried EVERYTHING to have anal sex for both of our enjoyments. Drunk, numbing cream, toys before, four very slow. Have tried ALL the advice, different positions. I think he's just too big. I did it with an ex who was very small and didn't have an issue. Kind of sad we cant experiment the way we want with this. Every time he goes in I end up gasping and crying like crazy. If it matters I was sexually assaulted back there, but i don't think it does because I know my husband isn't him and I'm 100% comfortable.