TTC #1, been off bc since march

Had a period April 4-8 and had another period June 6-10...now I'm on cd 73ish (I can't remember) and I've gotten some faint positives but then other tests are negative! I'm so confused! I was AF to come or a BFP to finally show! Before bc I had a period every month and then on bc I had them every 28 days! But after I quit taking the pill my periods are scattered! After the first cycle it was 63 days and now it's cd 73 and counting! 😫

I tried to get a blood test done at the hospital but they won't do it without a order from the doctor and the doctor won't order it because I haven't been there in 6 months (insurance reasons)..so I'd have to get a urine test done at the doctors office first, but I just know it'll be negative so I haven't went!

Also on August 9th I went pee and wiped and there was pink so I wiped again and there was more! It was like clear cm with tints of pink spots throughout it...implantation? 🤷🏽‍♀️ the tests are negatives..

Is there anyone in the same boat as me? Been through this? Anyone have advice?

Thanks for reading!