So intrusive thoughts are something I've dealt with since about 12 but it could have been longer. I had severe OCD symptoms at 12, I couldn't touch anything in fear or breaking it or ruining t or getting germs and then transferring germs. I don't have germ OCD anymore, but another symptom was intrusive thoughts. They started out as sexually, I thought I was attracted to my best friend or a family member I became fixated on thinking something was wrong with me. It progress as I got older, the trigger is real I can't exactly say what the thoughts put in my head about me but I've talked it out a bit so I know I'm not those thoughts, but I still feel like a freak. Fast forward I'm 26, with a new baby who I love more than I knew was possible. One thing about intense emotions is the intense love I can feel, oh my.god if do anything in the world to save or help my baby. Anything. So now I'm having bad thoughts about horrible things happening to him and it's eating me up. I can't shelter him his whole life, I hate these thoughts that take so much from me. I can't be completely honest about them.to a therapist because they frighten me that much. Am I alone? Does anyone else have this? I just wanna enjoy my baby and stop worrying about things that could happen ya know? I don't feel like I will get any comments but if I do, how do you cope? I just wanna say I am very stable too, this is just all internal and at Bay, but I'd prefer them to not be there. The thought of anything happening to my baby sends me off the deep end in my brain.