Am I the only one.....

I'm sexually attracted to women. I am dating a woman. But I'm not a fan of vaginas. I respect vaginas. I think hers is cute but I don't really want to touch it. I don't like fingering, not even fingering myself. I'll stimulate her clit but my fingers don't go down farther than that.I don't like getting eaten out very often and in turn I don't eat her out (one time I tried to get into it and she laughed and I got super insecure so I didn't try again for maybe 6 months). She says she doesn't care and assures me she gets off just from getting me off. But I feel like I'm letting her down or something. Am I the only one like this? I really don't know what my aversion stems from. I completely sexually attracted to her and I love our sex life....i just don't love vaginas....