how do i handle seeing someone i fell so deeply for with someone else? i met this guy and immediately kind of fell for him. he took me out twice.. just normal things like walking around the city and we went to the beach. he acts like we're friends sometimes but then sometimes he flirts like when we were in the water he kind of held me and let me wrap myself around him for a bit then after that it was nothing. he goes back and forth like that. and when we're in the truck he'll playfully grab my thigh or flick my boob or something. the other two times we just stayed at his house and had the best sex of my life. anyways i love everything about him. his personality, his looks, the way he acts just everything. and im usually a gold digger.. he's working two jobs, living with his aunt and uncle, doesn't have nice things and he just doesn't have money in general but im still heavily attracted to him. i can have the guy of my dreams right now that has a $80,000 truck, $400,000 house, gives me whatever i want , treats me like im the best thing that ever happened to him but instead im still chasing after this other guy.. it's so unlike me. i don't know why im going after this guy that i mean absolutely nothing to and has nothing going in life for this guy that i mean everything to and gives me the world. is this what love feels like? anyways he always has this girl snapping him and im pretty sure they're together right now. it hurts more than anything i don't know how to handle it. i literally care about him so much! for example (his truck broke so i woke up at four in the morning and drove him 45 mins to work, paid the toll, paid the gas, and drove back to my job late almost getting fired for him) just little things like that. and i still mean absolutely nothing to him. i don't know i just need advice because this hurts like hell and im just experiencing this for the first time and don't know what to do !! thanks