Heavily babyfevering

I find myself being addicted to pregnancy tests. Always hope something will come out of it and its just as much exciting as it is frustrating. My husband isn't against having kids but we arent really trying either (well I am but he doesnt know). So every time I feel the slightest preggo symptoms I cant wait to rush in the bathroom and get a test . I never really wanted to be a mom but since I got married a few months ago its the only thing I can think of :(