Scared of my weight!

Leslie

I will try to keep this as short as possible and not go into great detail, but I need to vent. I just turned 35 in June. My husband and I have 6 wonderful kids, but only one of them is ours together. I have 3 kids from my previous marriage and he had 2. We met, fell insanely in love with each other, got married and he had his vasectomy reversed so we could have a child of our own. We welcomed a daughter into our world and she is currently almost 15 months old. All 6 of our kids live with us and we are always busy, however, we decided in July to try for one more child together. The problem is, I am scared to gain more weight! I haven't lost hardly any weight I gained with my last pregnancy. I was 178 when I got pregnant with her. I gained about 27 pounds with my daughter. I stopped breastfeeding in late April due to needing rotator cuff surgery in May and gained 8 pounds in two weeks! I am currently 194 pounds and having a very hard time losing just a pound. I am scared to weigh this much and get pregnant again! I am 5'6" and desperately want to lose weight. My husband says I am stressing about weight loss too much and thats why I am not losing. I had always said, before meeting my husband, I didn't want to have children after the age of 35, but we want one more. It will be our last, we have discussed him getting another vasectomy or getting my tubes tied afterwards. I don't want to delay things too much longer, but I am scared to death of gaining another 25-30 pounds and not be able to lose it after. My ob/gyn kept telling me during my last pregnancy to keep my weight gain under control and not gain much more than 15 pounds. I know if we get pregnant again I will be told the same, or to gain even less than 15 pounds. Has anyone that was already overweight been pregnant and successfully kept weight gain to a minimum? I have been through a lot physically since 2014, from a torn rotator cuff, a broken foot, spent my last entire pregnancy in a cast, had a bone removed from my foot while pregnant last time, and just had rotator cuff surgery, and I have not been as active as I once was. I desperately want to get back in shape and have my active lifestyle back, but don't want to delay having another child. Anyone else ever been in a similar situation??