Endometriosis struggles

Today's pill count is 5 Advil, 3 Tylenol, plus my Claritin and Lexapro. I was on birth control which controlled my symptoms but it made my depression worse hence why I started Lexapro. I feel like I'm losing my mind! I take all these painkillers to get rid of the pain but then my stomach starts to hurt but not as much as my cramps. I cry when I go #2, I get hot flashes, I have horrid mood swings, and sometimes I can't even move from how much pain I'm in. I just don't know what to do about it anymore. I don't have the money for surgery to cut this shit out of me. I'm losing it. It hurts so much because today is my boyfriend's birthday and I've almost passed out multiple times and I'm a little dopey from all the painkillers I've taken. He deserves better today.