so.. yeah it wasnt real

I really thought it would be real this time.. I was 4 days late! I've never been late before. NEVER! then spotting/light period arrived. none of what happened is normal for me... I can't stand seeing all the babies around me and it be so difficult to actual conceive one.. 😔 I know all women go through different stuff in life and all sorts of things.. I feel like there's something wrong with my body and I did a scan and the doctor never called me back on, I figured no news is good news..