Hard time


Just got home from the anatomy scan and have been crying since. I know it's ridiculous but I had my heart set on a baby girl, it was my last chance to have a girl (have 2 boys). I held it together during the ultrasound after she showed me his boy parts and have been trying to hold it together besides a few tears here and there. But I swear everywhere I go are these adorable girls and I know I won't have one. It's breaking my heart. I feel horrible that I can't stop crying, I should just be happy that he's healthy. I don't want him to be stressed out because I'm stressed but I can't help it. Everyone is posting congrats and it makes me cry harder. My husband feels like he's failed me. I don't want to be upset with him. Here it is my oldest sons birthday and I'm crying in the bedroom.