I have no one to talk to. Glow is my only form of venting and getting advice from strangers. I'm not really sure what exactly a mental illness is other than googling symptoms. I feel myself making up scenarios I'm my mind and actually believing that they happened. When I realty they didn't. I have severe anxiety but I have never had the chance to be seen for a doctor for it. I am married but I don't talk to my husband or anyone close to me about this here. When I do try to talk to my husband when my anxiety is through the roof his response will be something like "oh your anxiety is always acting up." So that's why I don't care much to open up to him or anyone. They think I use anxiety as an excuse or to be funny. But there is nothing funny about having anxiety. I would love to wake up one morning and not worry or panic over nothing. I would love to sit and watch tv and not have my heart race and my hands sweat. I just needed to get how I feel off my chest.

Thank you for reading 💓