UPDATE: i had my D&C; this morning. oddly i feel a bit of relief knowing i am no longer carrying a dead baby. i miss him but i am glad to be able to begin my healing. the hospital gave me these.

i went to our 10 week appt today and there was no heart beat and the baby was only measuring 6 weeks. He says we should start trying right after my D&C; which he scheduled for wednesday. i hate knowing I've been carrying a dead baby and i hate knowing i couldn't do anything to save it. this was our first pregnancy but it was after a year of trying, surgery and infertility medications. i am so angry and can't understand what i did to deserve this. to have the love of a child dangled in front of my face and then taken away. so heart broken