Feeling my heart drop out of my body. And my mind racing a million miles a second, jealous i never gotbto have that and just heart broken from the inside. The first time, it was a mom with a set of triplet girls.. a month after i had my daughter. I literally had a breakdown, left my cart full of groceries and went home and cried. Then felt like a loser when i realized i couldnt even complete a task as simple as grocery shopping. Its coming up on 10 months, that i lost my daughter at 28 weeks.. and it just doesnt seem to be getting any easier. I just wish i had someone close to me who understands what i feel to talk to.. or at least a wide open empty place where i could just scream as loud as i wanted with nobody around to question my sanity.