Ok so my bf went out drinking last night with the boys lol, their from his hometown. He got so wasted. He passed up and threw up and I helped clean him up and gave him a shower. I was pretty scared and I've never taken care of someone who was drunk af before. Before he woke up or I think he had a weird dream or was talking in his sleep he was like: "you have to move out" I'm like what? He's like you have to move out. Then he said something about a profile. And he said either knows or nose. And I'm like what are you talking about? He's like never mind. And went back to bed. What I'm about to say next will make it sound like I cheated but I in know way did. Ok I downloaded tinder over the summer because I wanted to meet new people (not necessarily guys) but friends in my area because I have none back home and I will be taking online classes next year. I wanted to expand my friend group. I'm stating that right now: I did not cheat on my bf. As a matter of fact, I almost found it fun chatting with people and then just i guess ghosting them. Some guys have me their numbers but I just ignored them after they did that. I also never had any intentions of meeting anyone of those guys. I thought of it as a social experiment. I thought of that guys being ignored on tinder was normal. I was bored at home and my bf lives 1.5 hours away. Once again, I did not cheat on him. I love my bf. It took him a while for him to start appreciating me and what we have but he is my best friend and taking care of him last night made me love him more. Am I just paranoid? He likes to joke around and he farted on me and I was like: you farted on me!! And I think he might of said: you cheated on me. I can understand why he might think that but I didn't. If he brings it up again I will tell him what I did. Typing this up makes me feel shitty and I don't want to lose him. He was so plastered last night though he said he doesn't remember anything. He told me I'm the best this morning and I said have a good day I'll see you later. He said ok babe you too. Idk if his friends have tinder, I don't think I would match with someone in his area. I kinda need help on someone to calm my nerves. I might get "you're shitty" comments but only I know what I did and I don't think it is bad. I just ghosted a lot of guys on tinder while being in a relationship. It was just fun and games to me. My relationship wasn't in the way of it, is how I feel.